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Tell Me What I Did To You
Here I stand accused of abuse, why should I choose to stay
as you look at me solemnly like you've been betrayed.
You've been holding on to some wrong for so long you let us break
But, how was I to know that you won't let it show 'til its too late
Won't you tell me what I did to you
'Cause its something that I never knew
all the days that you and I've been through
slowly dying from an open wound
I'm no Judas or Brutus don't do this to me
tell me where or when, maybe then, I'll begin to see
But, maybe you're to blame for the same list of shame that fuels you're rage
Because, my open door was ignored for this war you wished to wage
Don't you tell me what I did to you
'Cause its something that I never knew
all the days that you and I've been through
slowly dying from an open wound.
Won't you tell me?
Now, our half-agreed apologies really didn't help
and accidentally you cut me - now, I bleed myself.
Won't you tell me what I did to you
'Cause its something that I never knew
all the days that you and I've been through
slowly dying from an open wound.
Won't you tell me now?
Please, tell me now.
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The First Sign
04:17
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The First Sign
Born to be beautiful, you're a natural symphony
a girl-next-door rhapsody
Making it difficult to be where I supposed to be
amazed by the scenery
Is you're mark of mystery
some dark omen of my misery?
Wish there was some guarantee
this is no dead end detour
Lost without a trace of time or place
Thought I was on my way down
But, now I found that
You're the first sign that at last my heart has healed
You're the first sign that the last time wasn't real.
Won't you show me the way back
I can't think and I keep losing track
I just seem to overreact
to the crimes that came before
Lost without a trace of time or place
Thought I was on my way down
But, now I found that
You're the first sign (and I'm the last one I would guess)
You're the first sign of my lasting interest
I'm in you're pocket now like a token of good faith
a charmed tied around you're waist
knowing somewhere somehow, if I ever lost my way
The map lies in your embrace.
Lost without a trace of time or place
Thought I was on my way down
But, now I found that
You're the first sign that at last my heart has healed
You're the first sign that the last time wasn't real.
You're the first sign (and I'm the last one I would guess)
You're the first sign of my lasting interest
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The Way She Falls
04:34
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The Way She Falls
Red, orange and bright yellow
drop at the sound of "Hello"
Suddenly, its all masks and demons at the door
She dances on All Hallows
Bonfires and springtimes shadows
Seems to be glad to see the end of longer days
Never leaves me altogether
Even in the warmest weather
Wintertime's just outside and that's the way she falls
Cold today and snow tomorrow
Giving back the time she borrowed
Summertime's changed her mind and that's the way she falls
I like the way she brings to me
Those sweet nostalgic memories
Man to child for awhile I'm young and innocent
Seems like she's always been here
'Round the same time most every year
But, every day that she stays I want to celebrate
Never leaves me altogether
Even in the warmest weather
Wintertime's just outside and that's the way she falls
Cold today and snow tomorrow
Giving back the time she borrowed
Summertime's changed her mind and that's the way she falls
Tickles the troubleman, trimming the sales and tipping the scales into the New Year,
when new resolutions and clear constitutions will fade by the time she's here again
Let her take you back, let her take you back
While winter was welcome and springtime is seldom the bringer of tears, its perfectly clear,
She has good intentions and sometimes elections. But, please don't hold that against her.
Let her take you back, let her take you back
Never leaves me altogether
Even in the warmest weather
Wintertime's just outside and that's the way she falls
Cold today and snow tomorrow
Giving back the time she borrowed
Summertime's changed her mind and that's the way she falls
Autumn rides and oak leaf tide and that's the way she falls.
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Fadeaway
05:23
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Fadeaway
The scent of cold, clouds of breath before us
the glaring blankness beyond the door
The atmosphere fills an empty chorus
our footsteps crush on the barren floor
Imprisoned by icy gray reflections
in isolation acknowledge pain
In retrospect, the answers come so clearly
to mend the cracks in our souls again
It fades away
the darkness seeps through the waning bright
It fades away
the black and white in the scenes of our lives.
With crooked smiles and bittersweet acceptance
we face the truths that we cannot hide
and all the while serving out our sentence
remove the stains on our perfect lives
It fades away
the darkness seeps through the waning bright
It fades away
the black and white in the scenes of our lives.
Gone are the faces that told us who to follow
Gone are the voices that sung discord
Gone is the beauty of the lies we swallowed
Gone is the conscience we just ignored
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Cardinal Red
04:04
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Cardinal Red
Dead and dark
at the start
it arrives and everything melts away
Damp and cold
withered old
then a shower of birthdays begins and its
Cardinal Red, Kelly Green
icicle songs surrendering
All that’s gone, tomorrow brings
on newborn wings
at the end and beginning of all in between
Past my prime
but I find
this reminds me of all that’s new
rain street shine
mudded vines
when that eastern wind plays with the pinwheels its
Cardinal Red, Kelly Green
Winter white world surrendering
All that’s gone tomorrow brings
on newborn wings
at the end and beginning of all in between
Cardinal Red, Kelly Green
Winter white world surrendering
All that’s gone tomorrow brings
on newborn wings
at the end and beginning of all in between
at the end and beginning of all in between
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Drift
03:24
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Smokey beam through black curtains
jump on and ride into the blue.
we could lay here through midday.
sleep in the cool shades of our youth.
Third person life-long big plans
lay ashen in the light of noon
one peek outside the porthole
retreat inside our bed sheet womb
Unconscious at the break of day
hoping one day we’ll find a way
to drift into the sun.
In steaminess and salt breeze
wake in the chrome of ocean calm
pale sky dome radiating
we listen to each seagull psalm
we’ve found so many ways to play
and when the mainsail starts to sway
we’ll drift into the sun.
wave lullabye of white noise
sleep on warm sands of your life.
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Second Time Mistakes
04:15
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Second Time Mistakes
There’s that feeling on the river’s shore
Double deja-vu knocks on the door
Held the winning hand and then we played a losing game
now our almost famous run is not worth two-bits.
Bitter memories flash a nervous grin
face-to-face with history’s ugly twin
If we look beyond sweet circumstance
and give ourselves this loser’s chance
this won’t be your second time mistake
Now its time to take a hand and ante up again
Can we break the house with just a pair of deuces?
Cast your fate and see what chance creates
can’t two suckers catch a lucky break
If we look beyond sweet circumstance
give ourselves a loser’s chance
this won’t be your second time mistake.
Bitter memories flash a nervous grin
face-to-face with history’s ugly twin
If we look beyond sweet circumstance
and give ourselves this loser’s chance
this won’t be your second time mistake
Now its time to take a hand and ante up again
Can we break the house with just a pair of deuces?
Cast your fate and see what chance creates
can’t two suckers catch a lucky break
If we look beyond sweet circumstance
give ourselves a loser’s chance
this won’t be your second time mistake.
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Consolation Prize
04:44
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Consolation Prize
Now, when the gameshow‘s over
And you’ve answered every clue
You were the title-holder
A one-man wrecking crew
Clutching the trophy tightly
You thank all the family
And to the friends who finally
Made you stop and see
You win, you lose You pay your dues
And then you realize
That all it’s worth ‘s a consolation prize
Standing beneath the spotlights
The announcer waits his cue
This was to be your big night
But, now you see the truth.
After he thanks the sponsors
He holds out his hand to you
“Congratulations, loser! Here’s to all that you could do.”
CHORUS
To be human is to err and
that’s when it came unglued
you stood there all transparent
to everyone who viewed.
The tabloid paparazzi
struggle for a decent shot
the ten o’clock reporters
want their 15 second spots.
CHORUS
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Smitten
04:15
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Smitten
Some people say it’s an unhealthy obsession
That I’ll win the trophy for the dunce of the year
But, I’m just hoping for an honorable mention
‘Cause, I see the blows coming but I just can’t get clear I was….
Knocked Out, Tripped Up, Smacked down
Smitten by the charms of a good friend’s friend
Left hook, right jab, ropes bound
Smitten and its too bad this has to end
Well, I must say she has the form of a champion
Smart and strong and unbelievably young
Drinks an amaretto sour all the way to the bottom
Ties the stem of the cherry in a knot with her tongue I was….
CHORUS
I’ve been training to resist all temptation
I’ve spent time shadow boxing my will
But, it seems my common sense is all on vacation
and my head feels like its been drowned in a still.
Now, I can shake off any surface attraction
But, she’s got some kind of hold over me
I’m just trying to avoid a distraction
that leaves me punch drunk out in the street
She says she’s had more than her fair share of attention
with bar room stalkers that don’t realize
she knows martial arts but, that’s no point of contention
what I really want to know is can she use them on me…
CHORUS
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Impersonal
05:23
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Impersonal
Gifts are all pre-packed
in brown paper bags
no gift wrap or tags for you
Love notes all pre-signed
with those common rhymes
sterile closing lines make it
Impersonal, cold and unreachable
getting too close is so unbearable
but, changing your ways won’t be unavoidable
it’s undeniable
in love you can’t be impersonal
You live without pain
net no loss or gain
nothing to complain about.
Stay just out of touch
never say too much
never raise a fuss or doubt that you’re
CHORUS
Maybe all you need
is some soul’s sympathy
an opportunity to change
Someone who can see
impersonality
is just your way to be afraid.
that’s why you’re
CHORUS
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11. |
Maybe It's Time
04:22
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Maybe It’s Time
Wake up, you’re dreamin’
I heard you silent screaming so loud
those demons are coming out
Each breath is chokin’
you’re body’s badly brokin’ I know
you’re hopin for no more doubt
So maybe its time to think about the time that we’ve got
Maybe its time to change our plans and open our hearts
Maybe its time to count our friends - the ones we forgot.
Maybe its time. It’s time.
When each day escapes us
I know we should be gracious when life
ain’t painless But, things just go wrong
For you its harder
you’ve traveled so much farther But, I know.
Your'e you smarter and bound to live strong.
CHORUS
I know its easy for me to say
when my life goes easy from day to day
But, you’ve showed me all the ways the world can be cruel
Well, what should we do?
Think world would just be fine if we all had time?
CHORUS
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Jeff DeHerdt Group Indianapolis, Indiana
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